The Philosophies of Chi

What is this?

Well, think of this as a journal of sorts, some sort of collection of all of Tiago's deepest thoughts on some rather deep topics that he, likely, will never be able to articulate otherwise. In other words…

Welcome to…

The Tao of Chi

Tomorrow

I've been thinking a lot lately. More then I ever did before - I guess that's the good part about bein' by yourself alot. You got time to think. That's all I can do here, think, and do some work outs. You know, do push ups, and yoga, and other stuff to better myself.

Better myself. I'm always trying to better myself. I always want to work for a better tomorrow, always want to hope, and dream, and try. But, when's tomorrow going to get here? I've been waiting, and hoping, and praying and trying for 23 years now, and look at where I am. Man…even the definition of tomorrow - it can never be tomorrow. Tomorrow is always after today. Today never ends. There is no tomorrow, I guess. There is only today.

So…why are we always waiting for tomorrow to do things? Why are we always working to make tomorrow better, why don't we work for today?

If I get out of here…if I live longer, I promise myself. I promise myself that I'm no longer going to wait for tomorrow, ever again. I promise that I'm going to live for now, 'cause that's the only thing that exists. Today is all that matters, today is all that exists.

Second Chances

We're free. I'm not dead. I'm alive. I've been given a second chance, an opportunity to redeem myself. I count myself lucky - for not everyone gets one of these. In the process, we might have released a not so good Evolved into the streets of New York.

How fitting. Our release also let badness to roam the world.

I guess it speaks for how fairness works, huh? Or…or, I guess I can say that without being sarcastic. Hell, if I deserve a second chance, why shouldn't the black dude get one too? Just because he seemed like a hostile ass? I've killed men. I've done horrible things - broken all the commandments at some point. I've lied, and cheated, and stolen, and coveted, and envied, and killed, and…oh, not been real great with God before. What're the other 10 commandments? Ah, fuck it. Basically, I've broken 'em all too. So how come I thought I deserved the second chance and the other dude didn't?

No. Everyone deserves a second chance, no matter how wicked or cruel they were in their past. Everyone deserves a chance to change themselves, and make it up to the world. I'm going to change myself a bit and try to make it up to the world alot.

Revolution

It's kind of fitting that this is happening in America. Brazil got independence by asking for it - over here, I know they had to revolt. They had to fight. They had to fight for equality, to end the abuses of the English government, and after much blood was shed, they had it. The people had won, they had beaten the Man.

It's a revolution of our own. Again, we have a government that is abusing and doing bad in general. It's up to us, the ones who know, to set it right. The current government must fall. The people heading this country must be replaced, the lot of them, with men who have yet to be corrupted.

Can there be a bloodless revolution? Can this be accomplished without death? To put it simply…

No.

There must be sacrifices made, a precedence set, so no one that follows in office will ever consider dealing with the Evolved Issue in the same way. Blood must run so that no one ever forgets.

And I must make this happen. The quicker it's over with, the better it is for everyone. I must make this happen with the least amount of people possible - I don't want the blood of innocents on my hands. And I have to say, I'm glad I've gotten done with my first kill. Now I wont care as much when I kill again.

Loneliness

I'm so tired of being lonely.

Love

Love is convenient. It is selfish, and consuming and most of all…

It doesn't exist.

I want to die. I have nothing left, nothing but hate and disappointment and duty. Fuck duty.

I want to die.